21st of November

November 21, 2017

Dear Journal,

            Today was supposed to be the day that I would compete once again in the extemporaneous speaking contest at our college department. Unfortunately, I was enlisted at another event overlapping the first and putting me in a very difficult position. Good thing, a student on the same class as mine took my part and participated in it. As for me, I attended the writing contest in the afternoon. Initially, I thought that it would be the last event in line for me after I got out in the speaking competition but nah, I got it wrong. The contestant for the dagliang talumpati (the exact opposite of extemporaneous speaking *just the Filipino version*) also has an overlapping schedule during the time. But since I was already vacant, I represented our class. Honestly, it was really challenging on my part for it wasn’t done in the English language which I practiced a lot. For several years, I competed in the extempo not in daglian. Unfortunately, there was no one to put in the slot aside from me and that is why I joined. Continue reading “21st of November”

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19th of November

November 19, 2017

Dear Journal,

          It’s today when I took the highly anticipated JLSS (Junior Level Science Scholarship) Examination which was supported by the Department of Science and Technology (DOST) here in the Philippines. There were several testing centers all over the country but as for me, I did mine somewhere in Manila. At first, I thought that I would not take everything seriously – that it is fine whatever happens but when I got there, a part of me seemed to be so conscious of passing. It was a feeling so similar to what I felt during the time I took the UPCAT. And so, during the one hour of waiting upon the start of the test, I continuously tried to calm myself by listening to music. Fortunately, it worked – a little. My K-Pop playlist gave me some sort of energy to pursue the examination. Phew! Continue reading “19th of November”

9th of November

November 9, 2017

Dear Journal,

            Today marks the beginning of my review sessions for a scholarship program that I applied October. It is not just an ordinary opportunity since I never got to do this back when I was still in middle school. Fortunately, because I am attending a renowned state university here in Manila, I can finally attempt to grab this one out. Honestly, I am really pressured to pass the examination for this is huge that I feel like I cannot make any mistakes at all – so many things are just at stake. Adding to the tension, when I saw the subjects that will be included in the test, they are all my weaknesses. But even though that is the case, I am thankful on the other side since I have this chance to prove to everyone what I am capable of – that I am not where I am today simply because of anything else. I want to show to people that I can do this despite of all the hindrances that may come along the way. Fighting!!!

 

**Please pray for meeeee! Thanks a lot. 😊

27th of October

October 27, 2017

Dear Journal,

It’s a bit saddening that I had to go back to Makati City because of the death of a family member. In the past, I’ve always wanted to be there to mingle with our loved ones — hectic schedule just didn’t allow me to do that. 

To my Uncle Jessy, may you find peace with the Almighty Father up there in the heavens. You may not be able to remember my name but I will never forget you. Don’t worry, the entire family that you left in here will be alright. 🙂

Sincerely,

Angelie

 

25th of October

October 25, 2017

Dear Journal,

Today could have been a very happy day since this is the final meeting for our circuits subject unfortunately, it did not end the way we wanted it to be. There were unexpected things that happened which caused our professor to be truly enraged with the entire class. Because of this, there are people who are in the brink of failing the subject due to the issues that arose an that definitely includes me.

As for my opinion, I personally hope that this would be fixed so that affected people would no longer be jeopardized for something where they’re innocent of. May the involved ones have the courage to speak out for the benefit of others. 

In the end, no one can hide the truth. 

 

 

2nd of October

October 2, 2017

Dear Journal,

            I’m going to admit this… I feel really pissed tonight. REALLY. Actually, today was supposedly a very joyous day for it’s the 113th founding anniversary of the university that I am currently attending – but things didn’t go as planned.

            Well here’s the story. Continue reading “2nd of October”

30th of September

September 30, 2017

Dear Journal,

            Today wasn’t as good as my other Saturday experiences. It’s because I was kind of disappointed with the results of our final presentation on the descriptive research that we made for like 3 months. Even though I know that my friends gave their all to please everyone who attended the lecture… it’s just that – I was not satisfied at all. I think the main reason why I felt this way is that I aimed so much that I expected perfection from them. Unfortunately, it was too late already when I realized how wrong I have acted towards them. Indeed, this perfectionist side of me is giving me a real headache but I just can’t help it. All I can do now is adjust as much as I could so that I will not hurt more people in the future just because they don’t meet my expectations.

            I really feel sorry right now… I wish that I have the courage to let them know how apologetic I am at this moment – I really wish I have.