9th of November

November 9, 2017

Dear Journal,

            Today marks the beginning of my review sessions for a scholarship program that I applied October. It is not just an ordinary opportunity since I never got to do this back when I was still in middle school. Fortunately, because I am attending a renowned state university here in Manila, I can finally attempt to grab this one out. Honestly, I am really pressured to pass the examination for this is huge that I feel like I cannot make any mistakes at all – so many things are just at stake. Adding to the tension, when I saw the subjects that will be included in the test, they are all my weaknesses. But even though that is the case, I am thankful on the other side since I have this chance to prove to everyone what I am capable of – that I am not where I am today simply because of anything else. I want to show to people that I can do this despite of all the hindrances that may come along the way. Fighting!!!

 

**Please pray for meeeee! Thanks a lot. 😊

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27th of October

October 27, 2017

Dear Journal,

It’s a bit saddening that I had to go back to Makati City because of the death of a family member. In the past, I’ve always wanted to be there to mingle with our loved ones — hectic schedule just didn’t allow me to do that. 

To my Uncle Jessy, may you find peace with the Almighty Father up there in the heavens. You may not be able to remember my name but I will never forget you. Don’t worry, the entire family that you left in here will be alright. 🙂

Sincerely,

Angelie

 

25th of October

October 25, 2017

Dear Journal,

Today could have been a very happy day since this is the final meeting for our circuits subject unfortunately, it did not end the way we wanted it to be. There were unexpected things that happened which caused our professor to be truly enraged with the entire class. Because of this, there are people who are in the brink of failing the subject due to the issues that arose an that definitely includes me.

As for my opinion, I personally hope that this would be fixed so that affected people would no longer be jeopardized for something where they’re innocent of. May the involved ones have the courage to speak out for the benefit of others. 

In the end, no one can hide the truth. 

 

 

2nd of October

October 2, 2017

Dear Journal,

            I’m going to admit this… I feel really pissed tonight. REALLY. Actually, today was supposedly a very joyous day for it’s the 113th founding anniversary of the university that I am currently attending – but things didn’t go as planned.

            Well here’s the story. Continue reading “2nd of October”

30th of September

September 30, 2017

Dear Journal,

            Today wasn’t as good as my other Saturday experiences. It’s because I was kind of disappointed with the results of our final presentation on the descriptive research that we made for like 3 months. Even though I know that my friends gave their all to please everyone who attended the lecture… it’s just that – I was not satisfied at all. I think the main reason why I felt this way is that I aimed so much that I expected perfection from them. Unfortunately, it was too late already when I realized how wrong I have acted towards them. Indeed, this perfectionist side of me is giving me a real headache but I just can’t help it. All I can do now is adjust as much as I could so that I will not hurt more people in the future just because they don’t meet my expectations.

            I really feel sorry right now… I wish that I have the courage to let them know how apologetic I am at this moment – I really wish I have.

 

 

28th of September

September 28, 2017

Dear Journal,

            It’s the day of our circuits project presentation!!!!!!!!!!

            I am very much happy today since me and my group mates finished our presentation with a bang. Yey! At last, we could already sleep tight tonight. Honestly, it has been a tough month for everyone to build our prototype and prepare the rest of the paper works – but at least, we made it. #soproud 😊

            Finishing this project made me feel so stressed but on the good side, I felt more connected with the people whom I never imagined to be with. Each of us is unique in our own way but despite of such differences, we managed to survive the pressure given unto us.

            What a really great experience… until next timeee!!! XD

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19th of September

September 19, 2017

Dear Journal,

            Today, I decided to get back to writing stuff – random things in my life. I noticed that the feel in my hands and also the inner happiness that I long on my life every day. I admit it, I became stubborn. I let my problems over stress me to the point that I forgot the things that really bring joy to me – one of it is writing. Right now, I will let loose of all the things running inside my head. I want to let it flow once more, not just simply for the people around me but most importantly, for myself. This time, I want to be me again – escape this world and drown myself into my very own imagination; pushed the boundaries to limitless until it becomes imaginary and can no longer hinder the way I want to express my feelings. I have no idea whether this still makes sense but I want to continue. I want to write more and more – over and over again; release everything once more and free myself from the judgmental world I am dwelling in…